so i met a guy right? whoop didi freaking doo! we’re “getting to know each other” and he’s like the one initiating everything and what not, i’m kinda going along w/ whatever you know asking/answering question after question. seems like he’s into me and i’m liking what i’m hearing so far.. seriously we JUST met, so i’m not thinking imma fall in love or anything.. casual dating is cool.. so he asks when our first date will be and i told him my work schedule and that so far my next few days off i already have plans and i dont even have my schedule for sept yet.

his attitude towards me hella changed.. saying i shoulda been more honest, shoulda told him i was unavailable until sept… i mean i made all those plans not knowing i was gonna meet him right? he’s saying i’m too busy and it’s an automatic no go.. saying that i wasted his time “people are busy but u make time for things that you want to make time for. and honestly you dont have time. when you meet someone, you have 1 week to schedule a date. after that first week, its over. and obviously u dont take this whole dating thing seriously” saying I PLAYED GAMES and was “not honest. like really honest, and i know it.”

oh “i know it” wtf seriously?! i know my work schedule sucks but i do have time for dating and making time for relationship… IF IT’S WORTH IT!! obviously he was not worth it.. but it goes both ways!! i’m not tripping off of him.. what i’m trippin off of is how he’s tryna say i’m dishonest?! wtf.. yea we started talking to eachother coz we were interested in dating.. we just met so we were getting to know eachother but my bad for not telling you right when i met you what my schedule was like ..the attitude was unnecessary too! was it necessary to come at me like that?! you dont know me but you think it’s ok to give me a sermon.. you dont know how i live my life! i didnt even waste my time tryna “defend” myself to him, it’s not worth it. he’s so set in his mindset he wont even hear what i’m saying.

i have a WONDERFUL life outside of work.. my work schedules are monthly so i do have to plan ahead of time.. but i also make time for things i want.. so what i have to fucking plan a month in advance to meet someone? plan ahead that imma date them.. wtf

one day imma meet a guy who will like me enough to be willing to wait more than a week for our first date, who won’t think that getting to know me was a waste of time. that hurt my feelings forreal. =( one of my fave books is “he’s just not that into you” the basic message of this book is that if a guy wants you, he wont let get anything get in his way to get you, you’re his exception. i’m obviously not this guy’s exception, that’s perfectly fine w/ me. he wasnt mine either.

i’m a nice girl. i think i deserve a nice guy.


..now i’m sad.. still mad..